to me

Hello
It's okay.
I see that you are holding the same old mess of tangled strings, with a few new knots added.
Your hands are so busy trying to undo the knots that they have no freedom to do anything else.
Here is what you are going to do...
Drop the tangle.
Let it go.
And walk away.
Do your homework. Go to your job.
Write stories. Make art.
Read literature, read fashion magazines. Read your favorite things and some new things.
If you want to, step back toward hope.
Remember the things that make you happy and hopeful. Like trees and neopaganism and the seasons and love.
Be with your friends. Have excellent times.
Listen to lovely music.
Make some lovely music. What? I know you can't play any instruments. But you have a guitar that you don't know how to play yet, and you used to sing all the time.
If an idea comes, write a poem.
Stop forcing things.
Stop feeling like you have given up. You haven't.
The future is not a thing to be feared.
Healing, life, possibility, love, will come. Trust.